XXXTentacion is speaking out amidst criticism about his mental state and why he is a troubled rapper.
The Lauderhill rapper has been having a successful year, but it comes at the expense of his life getting a lot more scrutiny. He was also embroiled in a number of controversies that took place this year like his recent fight with some guys that he thought were Migos and it turns out to be not them and he later had to apologize to Takeoff. He was also rocked with rumors of him being suicidal and some fans starting to think that its all a publicity stunt.
“I love the way people will throw negativity on my name but have no clue what I’ve been through,” he wrote on Instagram Stories. “Let me clear something up, the reason I don’t have a complete grasp on my emotions is because I’ve been through sh*t that has f***ed me up emotionally when I was younger. Imagine being at least 6 to 7 years old watching your uncle hang from a noose all because of a woman, and then having someone you f*** with killing themselves with no consideration at all to you. Imagine being locked up and in and out of programs from the age of twelve until this f***ing year, ni**a, I don’t have a mom or dad around, I was alone, I was homeless, my family gave up on me, only person there for me was my grandma.”
XXXTentacion says that he never grew up with a father figure or an older brother in his life to guide him. “I’m emotionally f***ed up and insensitive because I’ve been mentally alone for a very f***ing long time, and I fear, and feel like I’ll never know what it feels like to be truly loved by another human [being],” he added. X told his fans on Instagram that he thinks about ending his life everyday. “If you think ending my life isn’t on my mind all the time you f***ing stupid, it’s these kids keeping me alive, it’s these kids that are the reason why I’m able to do what what I do, not these media platforms, these kids believe me, these kids see the fu***ng pain in my eyes.